Just wanted to get rid of my really old journal. I will load some stuff as soon as I get a decent scanner o .o

Because I'm Mr. Brightside.

This song holds alot of meaning latley I can't really explain why but believe me if you have been around me you will get it. My non-deviant friends invade and are basically destroying my thoughts latley however I'm not going to be weak and I'm not going to give in. People need me even if they themselves are killing me inside. I know I'll survive I know I'll get stronger and I know that life goes on. Life is a bitch but I will win. No more sorrow sulking or excuses. I'm gonna get out of my art slum get out of my mental slum and beatdown the bad. Saving people is my game, the rules just changed thats all.


~To Kabu-How about this for my first rant I think you gave me your Vyrus ^_~.





Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eye
Because....Death is Mr. Brightside

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Alexander
Birthday: October 18
Birthplace: Alexandria Virginia(No relation to my name)
Current Location: ATL
Eye Color: Clear
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 6'2''
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: British
The Shoes You Wore Today: vans and timberlands
Your Weakness: Pessimism
Your Fears: losing my friends
Your Perfect Pizza: Meat
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Good grades and actually start the band me and my friends always talk about
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: How goes it
Thoughts First Waking Up: Oh shit
Your Best Physical Feature: Eyes
Your Bedtime: 10:30 on week days
Your Most Missed Memory: Geneva Switzerland
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: Mcdonalds
Single or Group Dates: doesn't matter
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: neither
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee
Do you Smoke: HELL NO
Do you Swear: you bet your ass i do
Do you Sing: Yes i do
Do you Shower Daily: everyday
Have you Been in Love: who knows
Do you want to go to College: yes
Do you want to get Married: yes
Do you belive in yourself: most of the time
Do you get Motion Sickness: sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive: I don't know
Are you a Health Freak: no
Do you get along with your Parents: Yes actually
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes
Do you play an Instrument: Sax and do vocal cords count?
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: I might have
In the past month have you Smoked: HELL NO
In the past month have you been on :
In the past month have you gone on a Date: umm last month
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yah i think
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: with a bunch of other ppl
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Hell yah
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: actually yes
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been called a Tease: no
Ever been Beaten up: No
Ever Shoplifted: no Thats so weak
How do you want to Die: In a cool way Explosion something flashy
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A famous artist(mucisian wouldn't be so bad)
What country would you most like to Visit: England
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: blue, green, grey
Favourite Hair Color: anything except blond
Short or Long Hair: either
Height: doesn't matter
Weight: meh
Best Clothing Style: punk/skater/rocker/Ghetto shorts
Number of I have taken:
Number of CDs I own: Don't ask
Number of Piercings: none hopefully 1 soon
Number of Tattoos: none
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Not taking revenge

Your Life: The Soundtrack
Opening credits: Map of the Problematique-Muse
Waking up: Suck Run to the Hills-Iron maiden
Average day: Sunday Bloody Sunday-U2
First date: Ob la di Ob la da-Beatles
Falling in love: A favor house atlantic-Coheed and Cambria
Love scene: Stairway to Heaven-Led Zep
Fight scene: Can i play with madness-Iron maiden
Breaking up: Betrayed-A7X
Getting back together: City of blinding lights-U2
Secret love: Hysteria-Muse
Life's okay: Mama-MCR
Mental breakdown: Body breakdown-Dragonforce
Driving: The Fallen-Franz ferdinand
Learning a lesson: Knights of Cydonia-Muse
Deep thought:Yahweh-U2
Flashback: Paint it black-Rolling stones
Partying: I Love rock & roll-Joan Jett
Happy dance: Asterik-Orange range
Regreting: Bohemian Rapsody-Queen
Long night alone: Enter Sandman-Metalica
Death scene: The End & Dead-MCR
Closing credits: Closing Sam's town-Killers



These were shamfully mugged fromrakwaterpoet13

I'M BORED
stole from tori who stole from idk.

1.) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water?
Start the water, then get in


2.) Do you read the labels on the shampoo bottle?
no

3.) Do you moan in the shower like the people on the herbal essence commercial?
Umm HELL NO ( stupid orgasmic women in comercials)

4.) Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex?
no

5.) Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings?
no

6.) Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower?
yes

7.) Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot?
yes

8.) How old do you look?
Most say 17

9.) How old do you act?
like an adult

10.) What is the last song you sang?
Teenagers(my chemical romance)

11.) Have you recently become a member of anything?
umm no

12.) What are your plans for the weekend?
hanging with friends

13.) Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull?
WTF

14) Do you ever intentionally vomit after eating?
no

16.) If you were working on a pirate ship, what would you most likely be?
a stow away looking for adventure who gets in way over his head

17.) Have you ever called anyone a slut?
yes to their face

18) Have you ever been called a slut?
No I'm a dude

19). Have you ever smuggled something into America?
maybe

20.) Does playing guitar make someone attractive?
No

21.) Do you live in a city with a good sports team?
no

23). How many people do you think would come to your funeral?
I don't care I'll be dead by then

24). How many of them would come just to make sure you're dead?
loads

25). Do you have more enemies or more friends?
I have more friends

26.) Have you ever sent an anonymous letter?
No

27.) Can you fix your own car?
I don't even have a car to fix!

28.) Have you ever turned someone down for a date?
No

29.) Are you smarter than your friends?
Most

30.) Have you ever stolen anything from your friends?
Never.

31.) Have you ever been to jail?
No.

33) Do you like the smell of beer?
its alright

34.) Have you ever died or killed someone in a dream?
HELL YES

35.) Have you ever given to charity?
I do so reglarly.

36.) Would you kill a dog for $1000?
No i'd kill the person who offered the money for wanting to see the dogf dead and then just take it

37.) Do you sometimes get depressed?
Frequently.

38.) Do you get along with your parents?
YES

39.) Do you have plans for your future?
nah

NOW TIME FOR...
X MARKS THE SPOT

You are:
[ ]short, under 5'4
[ ] 5'4 -5'6''
[ ] 5' 6- 5'7
[ ] 5'7" - 6'0
[ x] tall 6'1 and up

NATURALLY
[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] brunette
[ ] dirty blonde
[ ] brownish
[ x] dark brown
[ ] black
[ ] i really dont know what my natural is

[ x] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel-eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] silver/gray- eyed
[ ] blue/green-eyed
[ ] blue/gray-eyed
[ ] they change colors

You wear:
[ ] glasses
[ ]contacts
[x]neither

You have:
[ ] short hair
[ ] medium hair
[x] long hair

Your favorite color(s) are?
[x] red
[ ] khaki
[ ] aqua
[ ] pink
[ ] hot pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black
[ ] green
[ ] lime green
[x] blue
[ ] white
[ ] turquise
[x] silver
[x] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
[ ] gray
[ ] maroon
[ ] gold
[ ] teal
[ ]clear
[ ] bronze
[ ]don't really care too much though..
[ ] I don't believe in favorite colors

Some things you've done?
[ ] ice skating
[x] hiking
[x ] kayaking
[x] rafting
[ ] water skiing
[x]camping
[ ]horseback riding
[ x] bodysurfing and skim boarding
[ ] snowboarding
[ ] skiing
[x] danced
[x ]skateboarding/longboarding
[ ] cheerleading
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] street hockey
[ ] gymnastics
[x] martial arts
[ ] baton twirling
[x] swimming
[ ] wakeboarding
[ ] kneeboarding
[ ]tubing

Your personality is sometimes...
[ ] talkative
[ ] shy
[ ] funny
[x] serious
[x] laid back
[ ] strict
[ ] hyper
[ ] weird
[ ] ditzy
[x] sarcastic!!
[ ] slow

you like listening listening to?
[ ] pop
[ ] country
[ ]ska
[ ] christian
[x ] classical
[ x] techno
[ ] oldies
[ ] opera
[ ] 80's
[ ] disco
[ ]rap
[ x] classic rock
[x] punk
[x] metal
[x]screamo
[ x] reggae
[x] emo
[x] hardcore


The pets you have HAD?
[x]cat(s)
[x] dog(s)
[ ]lizard
[ x]hamster
[ ] ferret
[ ]bunny
[x] fish
[ ]duck
[ ] horse
[ ] bird
[ ] frog
[ ] hermit crab
[ ] turtle
[ ]snake
[ ] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] pig
[ ] goat
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] tarantula
[ ] geese
[ ] baby chicks
[ ] hedgehog
[ ] snail
[ ] perana
[ ] seagull
[ ] newt
[ ] sugarglider
[ ] mouse


Clothing Brands you like?
[ ] Delia's
[ ] american eagle
[ ] Hollister
[ ] The Buckle
[ ] abercrombie & fitch
[ ] Target
[ ] Wal-mart
[ ] Wet Seal
[ ] Forever 21
[ ] O'neil
[ ]Pac Sun
[ ] Gap
[ ] Banana Republic
[ ] aeropostale
[ ] Dickies
[ ] quicksilver
[ ] Anchor Blue
[ ] Guess
[ ] lucky brand
[ ] Champs
[ ] Salvation army/goodwill/value village
[ ] old navy
[ ] name brands
[ ] Victorias secret *snickers* (psst, just kidding)
[ ] Eddie Bauer
[ ] hot topic
[x] I don't care as long as it looks cool


Shoe Brands?
[ ] Flip-Flops
[ ] Rainbows
[ ] nike
[ ] adidas
[ x] reebok
[ ] Jordans
[ ] billabong
[ ] Roxy
[ ]puma
[ ] Uggs
[ ] luggs
[ ] etnies
[ ] Reefs
[ ] Converse
[ ] K Swiss
[ x] Adio
[ ] dc
[ ] Globes
[ ] vans
[ ] New Balance
[ ] LEI
[ ] Payless
[ ] DVS
[ ] Es
[ ] macbeth
[ ]DSW
[x] if I like something, I'll buy it!
[x]dont really care
[x] Timberland

your confessions:
[ ] I'm afraid of silence
[x]I am really ticklish
[ ] I'm afraid of the dark
[ x] I've collected comic books( manga)
[x] I shut out others
[ ] I open up to others easily
[ ] I read the newspaper
[ ] I love Disney movies
[x] I am a sucker for eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I bake well
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class
[ ] I love Martha Stewart
[ ] Im guilty of TyPiNg LiKe ThIs
[ ] I am self-conscious at times
[ x] I love to laugh
[ ] i smoke cigarettes
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[x] I bite my nails
[ x] I play computer games when I'm bored
[ x] I've gotten lost in the city
[ ] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] made out in an elevator
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Been bungee jumping
[ ] Bitten someone
[ ] Dressed up like the opposite sex
[ ] egged a house/car
[ ] Smashed a car
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Been skinny dipping

Have you ever...
[ ] made out in the rain
[x] danced in the rain
[x] seen a shooting star
[ ] proposed to anyone
[ x] eaten sushi
[ ] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Been on a cruise ship
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Been on a Plane by yourself
[x] had surgery
[x] seen a movie more than 3 times
[x] been on stage
[ x] peed somewhere other than a toilet
[ ] gotten a black eye
[x ] memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[x] watched an entire baseball game

Do you like...
[ ] old movies
[ ] musicals
[x] blasting music in your car
[x] foreign foods
[ x] Pokemon( THE GAMES ARE THE SHIT XD)
[ x] Christmas time
[x]donuts
[x] animals
[ x] coffee (m addicted)
[x] tea (also addicted)



TWO'S OF EVERY KIND

Two Names You Go By Other Than Your Real Name:
Death and Hoare

Two Parts of you Heritage:
British and German

Two Things That Scare You:
Snakes and people with cold eyes and no emotion

Two of Your Everyday Essentials:
A pencil and a Sketchbook

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
Jeans a shirt

Two Things You Want in a Relationship other than Real Love:
Honesty And intelligence

Two Things that Appeal to You In a Guy/Girl:
Intellect & Kindness

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies:
drawing video games , and Yes a number three writing

Two Things You Want Really Badly:
a nintendo Wii, and to be happy

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation:
Japan & switzerland( I lover geneva)

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die:
Become an artist of somesort and find true love( chesey right?)

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now:
Being angry and How much i hate Airborne

Two people You haven't talked to in a while?:
Alice, and Harmen

Two favorite animals:
Mongoose & Cat

Two Reasons you're doing this survey:
Bored and Tired

Spell your name without vowels:
Lxndr

How many pairs of jeans do you own?:
idk

shorts?
idk

How many are designer?
idk

What color do you wear most often?
Black

Least favorite color?
don't have one

Last song heard on the radio?
radio blech

What's for dinner tonight?
spigetti

Are you happy with your life right now?
No

Last person you called on your cell phone:
Bryana

NOW FOR THE...
[Do you own a?]

- PS2: yes
- XBOX [360]: no
- PSP: yes
gamecube yes
- SIDEKICK: huh
- digital camera?: ya
- Ipod: yes
- Car: no
- Computer: Yes.
- Laptop: no
- Palm Pilot: no
- Cell Phone: ya
- RAZR Cell Phone: ya


RANDOM LAST QUESTIONS...

In what state or country do you want to go to school after high school?
England

Do you shop at stores like Hollister, Abercrombie?
FUCK YOU

How do you make money?:
I dk it comes to me

Last thing you bought over 50 dollars?
I can't remember

How's the weather?:
cold

Are you missing someone right now?:
yah

What chores do you have around the house?
Cleaning whatever the Hell needs to be cleaned.

One word to describe you:
Wanderer

Favorite pair of shoes?
Hiking boots steel toed

Do you own big sunglasses?:
yes

Do you find yourself attractive?:
no.-

What would you rather be doing right now?
Hanging out with friends.

What should you be doing right now?
Homework

Last text message you recieved?
Blech

Who did you hug today?:
none

Q: How many beds did you lay in yesterday?
2

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
black

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
train in kenjutsu

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
none

Q: I cant wait till..?
thursday afternoon

Q: When was the last time you saw your dad?
yesterday

Q: Who got you to join myspace?
Elixibeth and Lucy DAMN THEM I HATE IT IT MUST BURN

Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
chicken

Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
HELL NO

Q: Look to your left. Whats there?
soda cans lots of them

Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
Socks

Q: What website do you visit the most?
deviantart.com & [link] GOTHERE

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
No...

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Yes

Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in?
Someewhere in Europe

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
yes

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
*yawn* who cares

Last person you..
1. Saw: sister

2. Hugged: Sister

3. Shopped With: Dad

4. orghljgnlkgj;klsjg

5. Song you listened to: Its the end of the world as we know it and i feel fine

6. What are you doing now: This godamned survey

7. What are you doing tonight: Sleeping...hopefully...


Done

1. Honestly, what color is your bra (or undershorts if you're a boy)?
at the moment dark green

2. Honestly, what’s on your mind?
My friends and family

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
watching family guy

4. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
I'm not ugly or attractive

5. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
No but yesterday i had a red bull .........O YAH

6. Honestly, do you watch Disney channel?
nope

7. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
YES YES YES YES

8. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
My friends

9. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
always

10. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
YES

11. Honestly, when is the last time you went to Taco Bell?
WTF kind of question is this

12. Honestly, are you in denial?
No

13. Honestly, where would you rather be right now?
In geneva, In london, or in new york

14. Honestly, do you like someone?
see jealous and do you want to see some one


Anger Section

1. What do you do when you're mad?
Punch the wall In or yell

2. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
Yes

3. Do you swear when your mad?
Yes

Crying Section

1. When was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out?
I cry on the inside all the time but i havent actually shed a tear for a few years

2. When was the last time you cried yourself to sleep?
i don't remember

3. Do you still cry when you get an injury?
No i laugh
4. What usually makes you cry?
Hopless situations, fights i can't win.

Happy section

1. Are you usually a happy person?
No

2. What can make you happy?
My friends

3. Does being with your friends make you happy?
Always.

Self-Esteem Section

1. Do you believe in yourself?
most of the time

2. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you agree?
No because they are all bullshitting me o .o

3. Are you one of those people that thinks they are ugly?
Im not ugly or attractive

dA Section

1. Why did you join dA?
to expand my artistic horizens

2. Are you addicted to deviantART?
No

3. What type of people were you hoping to meet?
no one

4. Were you looking for love on deviantart?
EEEEW

5. What do you think of the person that tagged you with this evil survey?
Surveynapped it